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its not easy to satisfy everyone. sometimes we feels like we've done our best yet its not. i wonder, what it will be, how it flows. do i have the right to make decisions for myself? and if it is a yes, can i take control the situation later? am i good enough with it? i'm 25th and already married but still.. still at the same path. still the same.

is this the punishment that i have to face from the mistake that i did? or i have to carry others sin? why all this happened to me? i just want to lead a normal life,like everybody. maybe that so called normal life is just a fairy tale? too much question marks in my head right now.

at one part, i feel like i want to run away from everything, i just want to be alone but at the same time i know.. this is not the way to solve everything. i have my responsibilities.. as a wife, a daughter n also as an eldest sister who are the example setter of my siblings.

argh, life must go on.. let bygone be bygone and i know i can face it. go marcella go!